Change

I am ready for change. Change is a big deal; whether it is a simple thing as switching shampoos or nail polish color or it could be as difficult as changing your looks. That's what I am doing, I am going to get a hair cut this weekend. Wispy bangs, dead ends cut off... Maybe some new make up. I need to put the past, well, in the past. I want to forget what happened. And now I wish I never did what I did. Bleh. This week, I swear is like weird, I mean it. You know your week goes by super duper slow when you thought Tuesday was a Friday, FML... Well I am tired...Good night... :-}

That sucked..

Valentines day was yesterday. And It sucked... I felt like everyone was against me. I feel like I need to vent. 
My valentine ignored me. It was harsh. And, right now I feel like crying. I don't know why... I just think I am going to give up like I have done with every other guy I have liked. Maybe I just need to forget about crushes. It's just that I like him and I can't get him out of my mind. I kinda feel bad 'cause I am annoying, as usual, but now I just think I screwed it all up. fml. I just really want to understand why I don't feel this connection anymore. I mean he liked me and now idk.....I feel like crying... I just want to sit in a corner eat myself fat of chocolates and cry. I wanna cry like I never have over a guy. So I just wanna say, bye. </3 but at the same time I don't want to let you go... please forgive me if I did something wrong...